I am tired. Desperately tired. I can barely function and can’t think straight – it’s a wonder I can formulate a coherent sentence.
I’ve had myself convinced that the reason all I want to do is sleep and lounge on the couch is that I am sleep-deprived and inherently lazy. Truth is, I can’t be bothered to do much more than keep my kids fed, clothed, and relatively entertained. I have no energy for exciting outings or crafts or even playing outside. And I’ve been feeling really guilty about it. The house is only passably tidy and dinner is whatever takes the least amount of effort.
Am I sleep deprived? Perhaps, but Em has been sleeping through the night for a few months now. Am I lazy? I like to think not.
So, what is wrong with me?
Iron-deficiency. It turns out that my iron levels are so low that they are barely detectable.
Well, THAT explains a lot – irritability, lack of patience, extreme fatigue, headache, restless legs, shakes, inability to think straight. Bring on the supplements and iron-rich food! I am going to eat my way out of this. This is good news! It’s treatable and reversible. With a little effort, I can start feeling human again! The best part is that I can let go of the guilt.
But that’s not all! There’s more. . .
The day I found out about my iron, I also found out that I’m prediabetic. The good news is that it is reversible and with some effort, I can avoid Type 2 diabetes.
Diet overhaul is in progress. For three days, I’ve been on a no sugar, low carb, iron-rich diet. It’s been easier than I would have thought, but Halloween is going to hurt. I love me some candy! Sugar is my biggest vice, so it’ll be interesting to see how my body reacts. Thankfully, I don’t have to give up coffee and have been able to choke it down without sugar. I don’t think my mind or body could handle going sugar-free and caffeine-free at the same time.
I decided to share this for two reasons:
- Making it public makes me accountable.
- I want to track my progress and record how I’m feeling without bellyaching on Facebook and Twitter about it all.
So far, so good. Though I have been looking longingly at the things I can’t eat, I haven’t been tempted to cheat. This diet isn’t about my weight; it’s about my blood. I have to take it seriously and do whatever I have to do to get it under control.
In the meantime, I appreciate all the support I’ve gotten – my mom has even given up sugar in a gesture of solidarity! Thanks, mom.