Next stop, WOHM?*
I never thought when I wrote this post that I’d been surfing the web for jobs after midnight on a random night in February. Yet, here I sit… with the sense of impending doom I have always gotten when job-searching. I remember thinking when I finished my last job that I’d never have to look for a job again! Seems naive, now.
There are so many things to consider now that I have to think about Q… childcare, specifically. I need to make enough money to make paying for childcare worthwhile.
I have a few prospects of varying monetary potential. While I am waiting to see how those pan out, I need some income to complement Mr. T’s.
I am not gonna lie – if given the choice, I’d stay home and keep doing what I am doing. I would be the one who Q spends the majority of his time with, and I would be happy with that. However if I do have to work, I want to enjoy it! I want it to mean something to me, and I want to look forward to going – even if it means leaving Q and paying someone a lot of money to keep him safe and stimulated.
I need to figure out what that is. I don’t want to settle, but I am starting to feel the pressure.
Who wants to give me a job? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller?
*WOHM = work out of the home mother
February 12th, 2010 at 7:50 am
Oh Sarah! You know I feel your pain. It’s so, so hard to venture back out and leave them, particularly when you don’t know whether you will be satisfied. If there is one little nugget I can offer: You know how nervous I was about coming back and leaving the boys. It was very sad, but now that I’m a few days in I feel so content to have this part of myself back. It took my by surprise, but yes, I’m feeling refueled by being at work. My hope is that you can find the same.
February 15th, 2010 at 12:55 am
Man! This is such a hard thing. I hope that you find the perfect job that makes you happy : ). It will be hard to leave your baby! I used to cry when I left my son at first. It was so difficult. I left him with my Mommy though so that made it much easier for me! Good luck!
February 15th, 2010 at 1:09 am
I hope you find something fantastic that pays alot of money so that you can share it with me.
February 15th, 2010 at 1:19 am
Stopping by from SITS and wishing you a great week!!!
February 15th, 2010 at 4:50 am
Sarah, I feel so bad! I wish you the best of luck! Stopping by from SITS to support my SITSers!
February 15th, 2010 at 8:01 am
Good luck with your job search!
…stopping by from SITS…
Steph @ A Grande Life
February 15th, 2010 at 10:38 am
Visiting from SITS. I remember this pain really well. It is such a hard decision. Have you tried the pro and con list? It seems like there are good things in every bad situation…and change is always hard. Best of luck.
February 15th, 2010 at 12:08 pm
I feel your pain … I’ve been a SAHM for 5 years and I know that it will end soon… I hope you find something great and flexible!
February 15th, 2010 at 8:49 pm
I hope you find something that you love and that pays enough money for it to be worth it! I work outside of the house FT and I so wish that I could stay home even just part time! But it’s not in the cards for us, at least not right now!
Stopping by from SITS, hope you have a great week!
February 16th, 2010 at 9:01 pm
Sarah, I totally understand. This is what I went through when my son was first born. I wanted to be the one with him the majority of the time but our family needed to survive financially. Ultimately, I stayed home, and then began working freelance gigs when he was just over a year. But I hear you, lady. It’s hard.
I wish I could give you a job! I wish there were more work-at-home type jobs out there for moms!
February 16th, 2010 at 9:48 pm
Thanks, Sarah… I wish you could give me a job, too!